I Ain't Dealing With These Jokers No More!

I have decided to stop competing with nothing niggas. I have spent too much time trying to win brass rings and shiny Cracker Jack prizes. My competitors ain't currently got sh*t worth winning.

Too many people raise their kids comparing them to other that they think are on the right track. "Look at Suzy Q down the street! You think she bringing home these kinda grades?" When we are younger we don't have the power of mind to even ask ourselves what the f*ck Suzy Q has to do with us. We just accept the shame and guilt of the comparison. Then we walk around wishing to push Suzy Q in front of the damn school bus. Years later when we get back to the class reunion we see that Suzy Q is a cotdamned basket case, seeing multiple therapists for f*cking mental torture that she is self inflicting in the need for perfection. Meanwhile, her whole f*cking life is falling apart because she's been through 3 failed marriages and has 5 wild, uncontrollable rug rats she's raising alone.

I want to be competitive with that muthaf*cka who's got the right spirit and mindset to get ahead. I want to get down and dirty in it with that person who doesn't have a vocabulary of failure. I want to one-up the person who understands what it means to really live, undeterred by fear or self loathing or ten thousand other things that make people strive to reach the gutter instead of the stars. I want to win against the person for whom mediocrity is NOT an option.

I came into 2009 with a new way of looking at life. I had not even declared the sh*t fully. I just knew that I needed to focus on something else to get somewhere else. In retrospect I have lived these words since January. I just never declared them. My 2009 motto..."I deserve better. If you can't be better then you need to be elsewhere." Not that I have put people on the chopping block however, I'm done competing with nothing niggas. That has stolen my focus for far too long. There are certain things that are my birth rite in this life. My happiness is one of these things. I will never claim it if I am competing with miserable people to be the most miserable.

The time has come! It is right now. There are too many successful, happy people in the world. Why can't I be one of them? F*ck these jokers who think life is supposed to be a stream of unyielding pain and suffering. Life is supposed to be full of wonder moments of extraordinary love and purpose. Life is supposed to be smiles and laughter mixed with tears of understanding and recognition. We all know bad sh*t is going to happen but it doesn't have to end all that is good. So, I am going out there and getting with the people who don't let crazy sh*t get the best of them. I'm making myself competitive with the folks who squeeze the pulp out of life's lemons, using creativity and vision to make the best damn lemonade ever tasted.

"I deserve better. If you can't be better then you need to be elsewhere!"